Tuesday, August 6, 2013

August 5, 2012

I had barley heard from my husband all weekend.  He had texted me Friday saying that his friends grandfather had a massive heart attach and didn't make it.  They wanted him to stop over.  Of course, go to your hurting friends.  All I asked was don't drink too much and please come home. 

I knew he wouldn't.  Don't drink too much?  Those guys were probably already wasted.  Ok, that's fine.

Most of Saturday went by without any word from him.  He wouldn't answer when I called.  His phone would go straight to voicemail.  Wouldn't respond to texts.  What in the world is going on?

I finally heard from him via text and he said he was watching 10 kids with his friend and would be home soon.  Ok.

Hours went by.

I got a two second phone call saying his friend took his keys and hid them so he wouldn't leave.   Really?  Are we 12?  Grow up.

In the wee hours of Saturday night/Sunday morning I reached one of his friends who was wasted.  They told me my husband was drunk and passed out on the couch.  Fantastic.

Sunday morning he finally answered my call and said he had made it to work and he was coming home after. 

I decided to make him homemade jalapeno poppers and BLTS for dinner before letting him know that I didn't appreciate how he couldn't take the effort to just call and say "Hey, I'm gonna hang with my grieving friends for the weekend, ok?"  That's all I wanted.

I knew when he walked in the door.  I knew what was going to happen.  I had known it for a while but wouldn't allow myself to acknowledge it. 

He asked me to come into the living room to talk.

He had his ring off.  I noticed it instantly.

"Why is your ring off?"

"This isn't working out."

"What the fuck do you mean this isn't working out?"

"I'm not happy.  I'm not meant to be married."


I can't remember the conversation that occurred after that.  I remember taking things that were displayed in our living room from our wedding and throwing them at him.  Yelling and cursing at how they were useless now.  I remember yelling at him that he wanted this.  I never once pressured him, nagged, or even joked about when he would propose.  THIS IS WHAT HE WANTED!

He had no response.  Fucking asshole.

I told him to get the fuck out of my house. 

He took a change of work clothes, one of our two pit bulls, and a box full of his marijuana paraphernalia (yes, I had married a pot head.  Let's not talk about how stupid Trish was).

I cried.  So.  Hard.

I cried as he grabbed those few things.  I cried as he leashed up our dog.  I cried as he walked out the door.  I cried harder and harder at each step he took.  My world had just crumbled around me and the one person that I wanted to comfort me was walking out the door. 

I couldn't breathe.  I couldn't move.  What just happened? Is it really happening?  Am I dreaming this?  For the love of God, WAKE UP!

My mom made it to my house in record time.  My best friend lived seven minutes away and I swear she was at my house in less than two. 

The rest of the night is a complete haze.  I have no idea how I even slept.   At some point I had texted the twat that I had married and made arrangements to talk and for him to pick up some things the next day around 2 p.m.

I needed some answers.  I wrote everything down that I wanted to say or ask.  I was prepared to start talking and to mend my marriage.  He told me himself that marriage was forever.  And I was going to hold him to that.

When he arrived nothing was said for a short while.  Finally I started asking questions.

Too much stress from the house?
The move back to Michigan?
My weight?
Was I no longer attractive to him?
Not enough sex?
Someone else?

The list went on.

All he said was no. No. No. No.

He told me I was amazing.  I did so much for him even when I didn't want to.  So what you're telling me is there is nothing wrong but you're not happy?  WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM THEN???

No answer for that either.

He bagged up most of his clothes and loaded all of his tools into his truck.  I cried. He wouldn't even look at me.

I couldn't understand how you could just ignore someone who is in so much pain.  Especially someone you claimed you loved.  I cried so hard I couldn't even breathe.  He did nothing.  I watched him back out of our driveway and watched him drive down our road and had no idea when I would see him again. 

Sunday, January 6, 2013

It's been a long time

Well hello blog world!  I've been gone so long...

I think it's time to blog again.  So many things have happened in the last how ever many months it has been.  My life has changed drastically.  I have changed drastically.  And I will share these changes...the good and the bad.

But first I need to make some changes around here...

....it is now MY Tattooed Life.....

***also..my link has changed.  I am no longer thetattooedfamily.blogspot.com.  trishisarockstar.blogspot.com is the place.  Dig it?***

Monday, July 2, 2012


Hey all! 

I'm taking a break this week. 

There is just so much going on!

This is the first week of the new semester.  I'll let you know about that fiasco next week.

Independence day is WEDNESDAY!  Go America!

Camp David (I'll explain that next week, too) is this weekend, my youngest brother-in-laws graduation party and my 29th (yikes!) birthday are both on Saturday.

Lots of prep going on around here!

I hope all of you have a safe and happy holiday celebrating our nation!  Don't forget to thank those who have fought for our right to celebrate!

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

A year of silence

It has been approximately one year (give or take a few days)  since I have last owned a cell phone.  


Really, it hasn't been that bad.

Only recently has it become an issue.    And, to be honest, I have enjoyed the silence.  

Yesterday, I broke the silence.

HELLO IPHONE!  I feel like a kid.  I've been messaging people and downloading apps like a crazy lady.  I've also been all over Amazon looking for cute cases. 

My favorite app so far is  Draw Something.  FANTASTIC game.  I'd kiss the makers if they were here.

What's your favorite app?

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Oh, How Pinteresting!

Since renovations are in full swing here in Cheeserock (what I affectionally called my hometown as a youngin) today's pins are all things I want to do!  YAY!

Source: indulgy.com via Trisha on Pinterest

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

What in the deuce bit my leg?

We're friends, right?  

Good, I thought so.  

I noticed this a while back and thought to myself..or said out loud to the dogs..."What in the deuce bit my leg?"

And then I started calling it Leg Herpes because, frankly, that's what it started to look like.   And it itched.  And itched.  Hubby is on itch patrol and yells at me for it.  

Now it looks like this..

I've discovered that it is really poison ivy, but I continue to call it Leg Herpes.  

Since we're friends I thought I'd tell you.  

Happy Humid Tuesday!

Friday, June 15, 2012

High Five Friday

I'm linking up with Lauren for her Friday Fun :)


1.  I think I officially defeated the bookstore.  They want 181 smacks for the microbiology book..which is a book made of SELECTED material from the original book. Read: not the whole book.  I found THE WHOLE BOOK for $4.05 on Chegg.  Take that bookstore!

2.  I am a flash card nut.  Everything I learn is basically put on flashcards for portable learning.  My favorite are the blank note cards but I can never seem to find them when I want them.  I always find the ones with lines.  I DON'T WANT LINES!   I found these puppies yesterday.  SCORE!

3.  I've been married to my best friend for four years yesterday :)  Side note:  do you also think it's ridiculous that four years has turned into such a milestone?  We have three friends that I can think of off the bat that never made it past 3.  Perhaps that's another  post?! 

4.  Happy Anniversary to me!

5. Umm...is that a sink base cupboard scheduled to be put into my kitchen sometime today (provided we do not run into any more hiccups)?  You bet your sweet bottom it is!  Perhaps there is an end to all this remodeling madness?  Stay tuned!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Oh, How Pinteresting!

Thanks to Michelle over at Shell Bell I am no longer in pin-posting hell!  If you click the embed button on the right of the pin you'd like to share, copy and paste the mumbo jumbo that it provides, and then paste in into the html version of your post, you'll no longer be in pin-posting hell, either!  WOOP WOOP

Thanks Michelle, you're a doll :)

Here we go!!

Source: glamour.com via Eryka on Pinterest

Source: tumblr.com via Kellee on Pinterest

Source: lyst.com via Heather on Pinterest

Linking up with Michelle at The Vintage Apple :)

Monday, June 11, 2012

Secret Blogger Swap: Revealed: Super Late Edition

Danielle over at Framed Frosting held a secret blogger swap last month.  SUPER FUN!  I recommend joining swaps.  It's so fun to get to know a new person and send them a gift...and get one in return!  

I had the pleasure of stalking Stormy over at Life's A Dance.  To see what I sent her click here!

The blogger with my name was Cat over at Stuff I love.

I was so excited when I saw this sitting on my coffee table!


Super cute necklaces from her shop Mimi Baby Boutique.  
I love the red dragon tee.  The oil stick things (I forget what they're called!)  sit next to my bed.  Lavender is such a relaxing smell.

Thanks Cat!

If you missed out on this swap and want to join in the next one you can sign up here and receive an email when the new one starts!  AWESOME!